Physically - To able to run when I want to but also learn to do other physically active things with my kids and not break down my body, I often take on too much and I need to learn to ease into exercise.
Spiritually - I want to be able to actually focus and clear my mind through meditation, five mintues will be my first goal, meditation is something I think would help me in my daily life because I am very high-strung and it causes my to struggle in relationships.
Psychologically - In the same sense, I need to remain calm even if I am not in control and learn to trust that someone else can do things, they may not be the way I want them done - it is the thought that counts and I tend to make others feel worthless because I can be quite controlling. My marriage was controlling and I learned a lot about how it feels to be controlled and I do not want to be the one making someone else feel that way.
Hi Kimberly,
ReplyDeleteI also want to focus on clearing my mind using meditation techniques. You say you are high strung but I am the opposite, I am a procrastinator and laid back. I think that if we both learned to use a little control to help free us of some of the daily life stresses then we can overcome our struggles of being high strung or in my case too laid back.
Kimberly,
ReplyDeleteIt is great that you have noticed that you are showing some of the signs of controlling someone else and know that you do not want to make someone else feel the same way that you felt when you were married. I was the same way with not being grateful when my kids and ex would clean the house and try to do things. I always complained because it was not done like I did it. Learn to relax and be thankful for any help that they offer. It will not make a difference in your life years down the road anyways so remember that when you are getting upset over little things. I wish that I would have realized that when I was raising my children.
It sounds like you have good goals set for yourself in the future. Remember sometimes we have to stop and smell the roses and remember that it is okay to allow things to be done tomorrow. You have to take the time to relax and allow yourself some quiet time. Good luck