In Unit 3 we were asked to score ourselves through a personal assessment of our psychological, physical and spiritual well-being. I rated myself as a 7 or 8 in my physical assessment but then I developed Bronchitis last week and have not been active, I cough constantly and I am finding that I don’t take care of myself the way I need to. Prior to this past week I would say that I felt I was at an 8 physically because I was running more and finding it felt great to be active. Currently, I would have to rate myself as a 6, I am taking my antibiotics and using the inhaler and staying hydrated but I still have lack of energy, I actually took a 5 hour nap last Thursday, I do not recall the last time I “napped.” Spiritually I have improved, I attend church with my boys and we started staying for the later worship service to hear the music; my youngest loves the Christian Rock that they play and I feel more connected to God. I was a 5 two months ago but I have improved to a 7. Psychologically I stated before that I was a 7 because I was facing my own demons. I have faced some of my demons and I have laughed at them trying to bring down my day. I ended a relationship recently with someone that was good to me but had a lot of baggage and I feel free again and ready for the next step in my life. I am also working on a better relationship with my ex-husband so my boys will be happier. I was a 7 two months ago but now I would have to say that I am an 8 or possibly an 8.5. I am not afraid to share what is on my mind and I do not fear the reaction I may get.
Physically I wanted to learn how to do other physically active things with my kids, we did take a bike ride to the park with me running along a couple of weeks ago, they enjoyed it and so did I. Other than that I have backed off of exercise as I get well and get over the bronchitis. Spiritually I wanted to be able to actually focus and clear my mind and I have found a bit more time for this. With the passing of my Grandma I find myself pausing while completing my homework and thinking of the things I love about her. I am not sure if it qualifies as meditation but it has become my new motivation. I do not know that I have done better in my relationships, I ended my 9month relationship two weeks ago but I do feel content with my decision. Psychologically I began to trust that someone could be there for me but found myself alone, again, so I feel a bit defeated with that. However, I had the courage to stand up and say how I felt. Also, I learned that forgiveness can take a weight off my shoulders and I am ready to forgive my ex and move on to a healthier psychological self.
I have learned more about myself in this course than I expected. I am a strong-willed person and I have found that I have areas that are weak and need improvement. Being forced to take a look at myself and admit my flaws and shortcomings has better prepared me for assessing my clients and asking them what they think needs improvement for them. In a way, the course has been a “taste of my own medicine” because much of what we did I can use with my clients to help them through issues they may be having. I would say that I have definitely improved my overall well-being and I have become more confident. I am ready to face the world with my head held high, my mind clear, my body healthy, and my spirit willing to face what is next!
It sounds like even with the minor setback of having bronchitis you are still pushing on. It is nice to see your progress with the meditations. This course has really shown me to "stop and smell the roses". I too have taken a liking to being more active with my kids, we enjoying snow shoeing together, skiing, hiking and biking. What a great way to show them the importance of staying active. Good luck in all your future endeavors.
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